really hope to see her in convo, i’ll buy her flower and a special gift. i love you cindy!

sometimes i really wonder whether would you even have this chance to stumble upon this blog, no one will know this place. if one day this site is found by you, will you still be single? but i’m sure that i’ll still be loving you. even though i may not be the one next to you, but i’ll always be behind you…

so cindy, work hard for this period, i’m sure you’ll make it! jia you! i yearn to see your sunshine smile!

so sweet.. awwww.....

i miss you, your smile, your singing, your everything.

you might be stress at school, you yearn to run away from everything, but you are going to graduate, and i want to see you in that convocation, donning that gown, with that ever-radiant smile of yours.

would it be different, if i pressed on.

it’s 12 midnight now. and i am missing you.

June june left Cindy and all those who loved her dearly today. Though my acquintance with june june was only a short trip from vivo to deport road, but i will never forget her. She is so adorable, keep licking me when i tried to place my nose against hers.

Cindy dun be sad kae. june june just left us for another happier place, where she will get to meet other wonderful dogs and people. Share the love that you have for june june with other dogs around you. Don’t be sad, ’cause i will feel the pain too. Stay cheery!

it was raining since i opened my eyes to embrace this new day. but in me, my heart was as bright as the sorching sun.

it was a walk to remember, i guess it really is a walk which i will always remember, because it is not remembered by the brain, but by the heart. i met her outside watsons in bugis junction, went to check out some cosmetic products. she bought a ice cream crepe and we roamed around the mall while she eats her crepe. i like to talk to her, because her voice sounds so familiar, so soothing, her tone sounds so true, so assuring. how i hope that the walk never ends, the ice cream never melts, the crepe is infinitely big. how i hope…

i pray that she will enjoy her trip to thailand and that she will be blessed for safety.

p.s: have a safe and fulfilling trip! =)

Please keep me safe from all danger and harm.
Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.
Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.
Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over.
And It’s the best response when I’m pushed beyond my limits.

I know that when I can’t pray, You listen to my heart.
Continue to use me to do Your will.
Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak.
Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.

I pray for those that are lost and can’t find their way.
I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood.
I pray for those who don’t know You intimately.
I pray for those that don’t believe. But I thank you that I believe.

I believe that God changes people and God changes things.

I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households.
I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this
knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God.

(copyright from JiaYing’s blog)

by Dave Feinberg

I’m sure that I will always be

A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,

Why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath the vicious square root sign,

I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,

with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,

Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,

Together now we multiply

To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds

With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued

Your love for me has been renewed

•·.·´¯`·.·★∵☆MeiKi☆∵★·.·´¯`·.·[/c=6] says:

i did not make it to the preferred courses in local Unis; you can say that it is no big deal, as there are so many doors other than those of the local unis. BUT, this is the first time in my short 23 years lifespan that i felt like a failure.

i worked hard in primary school to go into express stream, i worked very hard for my O’s to get into a good polytechnic and to do a business diploma. all along, the sail have been smooth-sailing. until after my poly, my grades did not qualify me for a course of my choice in a local uni. i am quite disturbed by this, though i do not always say it out. now come the sense and source of motivation, i vow to do as good as a local uni grad, if not better. i took up one degree and a professional qualification, and i set out to achieve a first class hons for the degree and to be a prize winner for the professional qualification.

through this period, i worked hard, adopting good habits like time-tabling helps to schedule time for studying and also my personal time. although attending classes every evening can really be a chore, but i would rather focus on the long-term goals i set out to achieve, than short-lived pleasures. i met new people with the same mentality and desire for success.

success: is when i see my 1st distinction for the first paper i took. i know that the unbearable long nights, the endless revision questions, they are all worth it. i already reaped what i sow. the sense of achievement is esctatic, it is euphorous.

i publish this post to remind myself, if someday, along the way, if i were to falter, i know i can look back at this entry, rekindle the motivation i had. and i will finish this race, with endurance and pain, and emerge as the winner. i am the winner.

also the foundation, i want to see my own success before i invite her to share my achievement. this is the foundation i am building, and no one will ever destroy it, because it will be as strong as the fortress. get it cardin?

faith is believing what you yet to see, and the reward for this faith is to see what you believed.

                                                        $90 for the cost of the trip,

                                                        and a compromised value

profit (actualisation reaped):           Priceless

ever since i decided to step on this path to becoming an accountant, i started to weigh the pros and cons, the costs and the benefits reaped of things i do.  050708 was no exception.

going for cable-ski in batam was suppose to be on 280608, but because i had unfinished work, make-up class and birthday event to attend, i duly suggested to help them planned the trip, but excusing myself from it.

eventually, we decided to make this fun trip on 050708. and it is a date which i will never forget, it is our first overseas trip together. there, we had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun.  though i had to compromise my value of getting MC when i am not actually sick (which i had never did it before), i am glad i did it. =)

she’s so special in her own unique way, it is something words cannot explain. her cheerful look, seeing her having fun, it really makes the sun even brighter that day.

though i hope that i will be able to go on the thailand trip with her, i am not able to, because i will be missing quite a number of lessons. for a greater cause, i will give this trip a miss. =)

the day spent at batam will leave an entrenching memory within me.

now i know, that 对不起, 我爱你 was not for me, but for him.

now i know, that i really rejoice with your rejoice.

now i know, that i also grieve with your sadness.

but do you know?

that you are so special to me.

that i will always be here for you.

that i don’t necessary want you to be with me,

that i just want you to be happy.

that i love you because i love you.

stay happy. stay cheerful. be the real you.

for everytime you cry, my heart also bleeds with your tears.

for everytime you smile, my sun will never set, never die.

sometimes i really wonder, wonder whether God created people in pairs, seperate them at birth, and that trust, faith, love and fate will bring them together. if that is so, i have found, and i am holding onto it. if trust, faith, love and fate are equally divided, which 25% each, God, i leave the 25% of fate into your hands. and i will build my 75%.

i love you.

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